Because I'm Not Normal

  So, I relapsed. Well, fuck. I keep asking myself why. However, after spending a large majority of my day talking to friends and going to a meeting, I've come to a conclusion. I'm not a failure, I'm not a worthless piece of shit, and I'm not a waste of space. I'm just an alcoholic and an addict. I will always be this way. I will never be able to go out (or stay in) and have a couple of drinks or do anything else that will change my head without overdoing it. Because I'm not normal, and you know what? I'm not ashamed of that. If you're riding on my same ship, you understand. For the rest of you, I'm sorry if you've been part of the unfortunate wreckage we can cause. We really do love you, we just don't always love ourselves.
  Today is day one. I would like to promise that I'll maintain perfect sobriety for the rest of my life, but that's not how it works. All I have is today, and I am working really hard on tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and the next.... Oh, fuck off, go have dinner or something. I'm gonna go back to not being normal.